sometimes, i miss you so much i can’t breathe.

sometimes my insides feel like they’re about to explode at the thought of you fading out of my life, moving on, forgetting my name. you will kiss other girls who look nothing like me, my name won’t even cross your mind. maybe you already are.

me? i’m trying my damn best to move on, really, i am. but sometimes the tidal wave of emotions splashes back over me, and i can’t just swallow it down anymore; i’m drowning again. i get depressed, and i’ll admit that i get angry. not at you, really, just at everything.

honestly, this is about more than just you. this is about missing everyone, really. sometimes i think that the sense of loss is much more powerful than the sense of love. i know it’s fucked up. but the way my chest implodes into itself, the black holes all these goodbyes have made…i just can’t forget them. i’m choking on it all. 

i wish you’d stayed.

i wish everyone had stayed.

i want to cut so badly right now but i am going swimming in a couple days and if my family were to see the cuts they would fucking flip… fuck this is killing me.

I will never find another you.

undeadlife:

Very few things make me happy anymore.

i hate feeling so exhausted but then not being able to get comfortable at all… ugh

musicismytourniquet:

I can’t focus on anything. I can’t think. I’m just dead on the inside. I can’t do anything I’m supposed to, all I can do is just mindlessly stare at my computer screen. I think I’ve officially lost my mind.